Madi, Abi, and Rem came home today! I have so missed them but have been so very grateful to recover at home in the quiet with just Derek. They were having the time of their lives at BB and Tigger’s (my Mom and Dad) house with cousins and aunts and uncles. My family is quite amazing, sure a little wild, but truly I am blessed.
My sister, whom my girls call Crazy, was in town from SC with her 3 kids, my brother, aka, Bum flew up from FL, Merry Ellen came in from SC, Laura, Ben and Emily with cousin Sam live in town, have all been loving on my children since Friday. They went to a corn maze, rode on hay rides, the girls had there first slurpy with Bum, they played garage golf, lots of long walks, bike rides, story time, and countless other fun things. I cannot begin to thank my family for all the love and support they give!
But, it was so good to see my girls, to hug their little faces, to have Rem crawl over and around me. The difficult part is they can’t climb on my lap and snuggle and hug me. I was not prepared for this part of the journey. I can’t pick Rem up, change his diaper, put him in bed, or even have him sit on my lap; this is hard. The girls can’t wrap themselves around me for a big bear hug because I am still too sore and one side has a port and the other side has a big scar. As I was singing with them at bedtime, Abi started crying saying, “Mommy, I just want to give you a big hug, when can I give you a big hug and wrestle with you”? Jesus, give me grace for every part of this journey, for every little moment, every little tear. I was overwhelmed by Abi’s tears. I held her sweet little face, kissed her tears, and she asked to sing Amazing Grace. Thank you, Jesus, for your amazing grace that I can now see….your hands are big enough for Abi’s tears, for all my fears. You have a perfect plan and it is beyond my wildest dreams. You hold my children in the palm of your hand and comfort them and remind them of your great love for them, a love that far surpasses the love of their mother.
Today was also a waiting day. Waiting on results. Hopefully, tomorrow will bring the lymph node biopsy results. Together. It is so good to be together with my family!