A Belated Merry Christmas! The joy of Jesus’ birth means every day is a celebration so maybe I am not late is wishing Merry Christmas. Christmas night Derek concluded that it was our best Christmas ever. He could only say those words because of the Hope that Jesus birth brings not to mention the complete joy on our kids faces as they opened gifts.
It has truly been a wonderful past few days. Being with family and friends only multiplies our joy. I have felt almost normal. Little girl is kicking and wiggling. Rem is walking. And our cute little dog is still leaving me special brown treats at least once a week! I am writing from the treatment chair. Round three of chemo. Still such a strange, surreal experience. Round two was quite hard for me. I didn’t get sick but emotionally it was so difficult.
I found myself getting very quiet and sad; didn’t want to answer the phone or engage much. Not a good place to be. Sad to be missing out on the different holiday activites. It was a quiet, numb time. The beauty of Heaven coming down. A few days before Christmas, my heart started to return to the glory of what His birth brings. Joy, Hope, Love, Celebration! I made the choice to Hope. Hope that a little baby born 2000 years ago truly did and still does change the world. Hope that this time will one day be just a memory. Hope for our little girl, healthy and strong! Hope!
Joy comes in the morning. Sometimes it is so gradual but joy comes. I am grateful to my amazing husband. He is walking with me so well through all my ups and downs. He is gentle and kind and listens to my heart. I started talking, through many tears, about frustrations and disappoints of the road we are traveling. He patiently reminded me that God gave us the gift of this journey and He is with us every minute. Gentle and kind. Strong when needed but so much love.
We carry so much Hope for this new year. Great news from our doctor today. It seems that I will only have one more treatment left before having the baby! We originialy thought there would be 5 chemo treatments. She will confer with my OB but hopefully just one more, then wait for our little girl to arrive. We are still tossing around names. Madi asked this morning if God had told us a name yet? I love little girl questions. I am continually amazed at the goodness of the body of Christ. The cards, prayers, food, generous gifts, and love have blown us away again and again. The love of God is unfathomable. A simple thank you seems inadequate but Thank You!