The largest organ inside the body. This is what the ultrasound tech said as I was lying on the hospital bed early Monday morning. I glanced at the screen to see what my liver looked like….not at all what I expected.

I spent the weekend trying to process my many different thoughts and feelings about the path ahead. Not feeling much peace in my heart but knowing in my head what is true of this life. This is not what I was made for; pain, heartache, worry, tears, anger, fear. I know there is so much more. Struggling to make sense of all the mess I see around me. I got a call today. My liver is clear, no lesions! Praises to a good and gracious God! A friend asked me today how I would feel if the test came back with lesions on my liver? Tears came quickly. My hearts started racing. Such a good questions. Would I still say that God is good and gracious? I will celebrate another year of life this month. Birthdays often cause me to look back on my journey thus far. As I think about my friends question and the many other questions regarding all the pain, heartache, sadness around; I know what my answer is and will be. God’s good and gracious hand has been on me for all my steps. Time after time, He has taken things in my life that looked terrible and has made them new for my good and His glory. Everything has not been redeemed or tied nicely with a bow but I know the One who holds me. He has promised that He will never leave me nor forsake me. He calls me beloved. A daughter of the King. I am chosen and dearly loved. He has given me a new heart and He calls it good. Jesus loves me with an unbreaking, always, and forever love! I will bless His name at all times.

The heartbeat of an unborn child is one of the most beautiful sounds I will ever hear! I heard our little ones heartbeat on Moday. Pure joy! What a comfort it was to hear the sound and know that all is well! Little victories, we celebrate each one.